about
i thought i was ready to let go
and place my first project as tim tam tum to rest, earlier last year.
but life set an unexpected turn of events and made me realize i still had unfinished business.
there was still more that i needed to say, as that person that i once was.
please join me as i once again attempt to make my closing statement as tim tam tum.
this song, like the others on the album,
was primarily written around 2015-16, about 5 years ago at this point.
it was composed as a fond yet painful remembrance of precious times seemingly lost forever.
being the title track of the album, as well as its finale, it was meant to be the defining piece of the project, yet it became too daunting of a task to fully complete.
i left it to be finished when everything drew to a close, a memoir that would encapsulate my full retrospective feelings on the situation at hand.
after years devoid of closure, it felt fitting to perhaps just move on and leave the past behind.
to drop my obsessions with what was lost,
and to look forward.
i think at the time of my previous release, this was a necessary course of action.
now life has brought me back to face these old memories, once again.
i bring myself forward to embrace them with everything that i have,
scars and all.
lyrics
On as the years gone by,
I look in wonder of all the view
Think of you
I look up and wonder too
Do you see it too?
I think of you
I wonder how you do
I dream of you
Do you think of me too?
We had our days
Remember how we’d play?
It’s not the same
Try to move on but
I've lost my way, I've lost my way
You've lost your way, we've lost our way
You've lost your way, You've lost your way
I've lost my way, we've lost our way
I don’t understand what went wrong
I thought I knew you best
Tried to do all that I could do
I tried to give my best (i tried to)
Those years are through
It’s lost and it’s done
It’s torn in two
Oh what have we become
We’ve failed our youth
We’ve declined our fate
No dream come true
We’ve both made our mistakes
I won’t undo
What can’t be undone
That might be true,
But you’re still Number One
Those years we spent
I cling to them tight
I won’t forget
You’d been there all my life
.
Though we have changed
We’ve lived different lives
It’s not the same
but I need you in my life
Through all we’ve been
You’re still my best friend
Till time runs thin
I’ll wait until the end
_ So you can find me
(I’ll be right here)
Know that deep within
(I’ll be right there)
Know that you’ve still got me
(I’ll be right here)
Waiting till the end
Till we meet again
Live our lives and take our time and
Hoping you take care
It’ll be just fine
It’s not too late
It’s not too late
We’ll be ok
Do what it takes
We’re on our way
We’re on our way
To find someday
We’ll find a way
We’re on our way
We’re on our way
To find someday
We’ll find a way
It’s not too late
It’s not too late
We’re on our way
We’ll find a way
Though we have changed
We’ve seen different sides
It’s not the same
but I need you in my life
Through all we’ve been
You’re still my best friend
Till time runs thin
I’ll wait until the end
/
{Know that you’ve still got me
Waiting till the end}
Even through the pain,
I’ll still think fondly of who we used to be
Even though things change
You’re still you and I will still be me
Even to this day,
You’ll always be within my heart,
Always
Even to this day,
Always
credits
from
Ode,
released May 31, 2021
tam higa - all songwriting, instruments, vocals, and art
christian peters - mixing/mastering
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